Marathon Training Weeks 11-12

I’m back! We had a great visit with my parents. We were busy, busy, busy every day. It was sad to see them leave but I’m exhausted and need another week to just rest. I’ll save a recap of all the fun we had for another day.

For the past 2 weeks I did not run at all. I gave my knee some time to rest. I’ve been cross training on my bike and doing yoga more. I’ve been following the “build up my knee” plan. On Sunday I went for a run. I also made a decision about the Smuttynose Marathon.

To say I’m disappointed is an understatement. I’m sad, angry, frustrated. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend. It may sound silly but running is a huge part of my life. It not only makes me feel good physically but mentally as well. I definitely have noticed a difference in my outlook on things since the injury occurred. I came across an article from Runner’s World that actually touches on coping with an injury. It’s quite common for injured runner’s (or anyone who is active who can’t perform their favorite exercise) to go through the stage’s of grief just like you would if you lost loved one. I think I’ve gone through most of them already and am in the acceptance.

Stage 1: Denial

How many times have you felt a little something that felt “off” while running but kept going thinking it’s nothing? I think we’ve all been there. And we all know that we are actually making it worse.

Stage 2: Anger

Why me?? I’ve felt anger at my body for not doing what it’s supposed to. I’ve also felt anger at myself for not being as vigilant about strengthening my legs. Why did I skip out on leg workouts because I didn’t want to be sore for my long run?  Grrrr….

Stage 3: Bargaining

If I ice, stretch and foam roll all the time, I’ll be better. Not so much.

Stage 4: Depression

I miss the running community. It pains me to read other blogs about marathon training. I’m trying to get my endorphin fix from cycling but it’s not the same.

Stage 5: Acceptance

While I haven’t seen any progress in my rehab, I have accepted that the Smuttynose Marathon is not going to happen. I’m hopeful that I can run a marathon this year but my number one priority is to be able to run longer than 3 miles without any pain.

Question for all of you: If you’ve had an injury before, how have you dealt with it? Did you grieve?

Alright, enough Debbie Downer talk! 🙂 I’m moving on!

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32 comments on “Marathon Training Weeks 11-12

  1. So sorry you’re in this place. I have been there, trust me! I was sidelined for most of a year and I really feel like I cycled through the stages over and over again. All I can tell you is that you WILL get better and you WILL run again, stronger than ever.
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  2. i definitely can relate to this post. when i couldn’t run for 2 weeks with a shin splint, it was hard! i was frustrated. i wondered why. and even now that it’s better, i still fear constantly that it will happen again! thinking of you!

    1. I was so scared to even attempt to run on Sunday for fear of disappointment. The mind is a funny thing. I’m glad your shin is doing better. I hope I recover just as soon!

  3. I definitely noticed myself cycling through the stages of grief when I was injured a year ago! It’s crazy how much it can affect you… but it does get better! So sorry you had to pull out. You know I’ve been there, it’s so frustrating. But getting your knee strong now will allow you to come back and tackle the marathon again soon!
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    1. Thanks girl! I think now that I’ve told myself that the marathon in September is off, I’ve kind of let go of something. I feel like a weight has been lifted.

  4. When “injury” sets in, it is so mentally challenging. I haven’t had an injury yet that has kept me out for weeks on end, but I get the aches/pains now and then that everyone gets and I am worried that something will prevent the FULL marathon I’m aiming for in April 2013. It is my main worry with psyching myself up to go for a FULL – injury. I think in these times, we have to really focus on healing and resting. As much as we don’t want to, the better we accept it, the faster healing occurs. I stick with regular visits with my sports chiro (I’m lucky with insurance coverage) so I think that has kept a lot at bay for me. I had about 3 weeks of aching calves in June and I felt like I was incompetent for much of it. (not that any of us are!) … injury really takes such a mental toll. It always gets better again, I think almost every runner blog I read has injury posts and everyone gets through them and back out there. Ryan Hall and Desi bowed out in the Olympics due to injury – it happens to the best of them and we all are still awesome regardless. 🙂
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  5. Oh Angela, I’m so sorry and that your doctor can give you some more direction. I have definitely cycled through those phases many times over the past year and it’s totally normal to feel frustrated and angry and lost. For me, I started to accepted it more once I had definitive answers from my doctor and a plan from my PT (tho’ right now, I’m back to feeling a little depressed again). But the important thing is to get better and get your knee strong again and you will be back to it soon.
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    1. Oh no, Christine! I feel silly feeling down about my knee when there are people like you who have had major surgery. I hope you are getting stronger and will return to acceptance again. I know you will be back to enjoying your usual activities soon. 🙂

  6. Oh I’m sorry to hear this. I really hope you can get in to see a good doctor and at least get some answers. I’ve been through injuries that prevented me from running so I know how it feels. The only thing you can do is try to find a positive. It’s there somewhere!

  7. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. It is truly that time to believe in the saying, This too shall pass, and you will be stronger for it. I’m a physical therapist, so I have a few articles on dealing with an injury on my site. 😉
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    1. It’s hard to look past the right now but you are absolutely right. I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason. I’m checking out your site right now!

  8. So sorry to hear this. It’s devastating and you have every right to go through the grieving process. Take the time to make things right, you will come out stronger. I’ve been lucky to only have minor injuries during my running career, however every time something happens I end up being super hard on myself and blaming it all on lack of training, training too much, mindset, etc. I rarely blame my actual body, until recently while going through physical therapy. My doctor pointed out problems I was born with and how I can fix the problems that I have created by trying to compensate. It made me feel better to know more. Good luck, stay strong.
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  9. Ohhhhh I can SO relate. I still am not 100% from my injuries and have certainly gone through all those feelings. Sometimes, I feel like I am still cycling through them. Just have to stay reasonable and proactive, I guess.

    At least you can have some peace knowing you are making the right decision for your body.

  10. yay Amy!!!

    Actually we just wrote about this on our blog last week and yes research does show that dealing with an injury goes through the five stages … other research we found also shows that the emotional effects can hinder your physical progress during rehabilitation too … recovery is a hard road but it’s worth the effort!
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  11. Ohhhhhhhh 🙁

    I TOTALLY know what you’re going through … if you need a shoulder to cry on let me know – To make a long story short – I’ve been in rehab for the last three months trying to recover from some chronic injuries that have plagued me for over 10 years. They never got diagnosed properly (even though I’ve seen many doctors) and so my knee degenerated to point of no return (stage 4 of 4 degeneration) … HEAL IT NOW – it’s worth the time off.
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  12. I am so sorry to hear this! I just experienced the same struggles. Right before my fall marathon training was going to being I had extreme knee pain. Turns out my glute and quad were super tight causing the pain. I had to take a month and a half off of running. I had those same feelings! Needless to say I am not training for a full this fall but I am training for a half. I just got the clearance to run a few weeks ago. I notice a huge difference with those endorphin’s. I hope you recover soon! Fingers crossed!
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  13. Hi Angela,

    you really nailed those stages. I had an injury a few years back and sometimes I feel I haven’t really fully recovered. It is really frustrating when I think about it but I never let it stop me from doing my work-out. I just try to take it easy when I don’t feel like I’m at 100%.

    Mariella
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  14. I can definitely relate with you. It is so frustrating to have an injury and not be able to workout or perform as you normally do. I injured my left quad several years ago and couldn’t do any lower body work for a few months. It was so frustrating; I was chomping at the bit! I definitely learned to listen to my body after that, and I think I actually came away stronger then I was before. Hang in there, you will get better!
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