It happened over the weekend. I did it. I missed it so much. It wasn’t perfect but you know what? I loved every minute of it!
It’s been three weeks since VCM. My foot is feeling much better and all the feelings that I had for that day (anger, frustration, etc) have started to dissipate. I was ready to put my running shoes on again. Even though I’ve been active these last few weeks in other ways, I had not even touched my running shoes. I had to laugh as I dug them out of the closet Saturday morning. The dried mud from race day was still caked on.
I think I was avoiding the shoes just because I didn’t want to deal with the emotions from that day. I wasn’t just pissed at myself. I was pissed off at running.
So how was the run? It was good but it wasn’t fabulous. The first half mile felt awkward and strange like my legs didn’t know what to do. My back was feeling like it was in knots to start with (having a squirmy toddler in bed with you for most of the night will do that) so that wasn’t helping. My brain felt like it was rattling inside my head.
At about the mile mark, I started to find my pace, get comfortable and relax.
I was running for fun. There wasn’t a goal pace. No distance to hit. No training plan to follow. This run was all about why I run — the feelings during and after. It felt SOOOOO good to be running again.
My body has felt weighed down and sluggish. My mind has been burdened with thoughts. I’ve been crabby. Running just gets everything moving…I mean EVERYTHING! 😉 Physically. Mentally. With every step things got lighter, my mind clearer and mood brighter.
In spite of myself, I have been thinking about my next marathon.
I may not be there entirely but thoughts of races are popping up in the back of my mind. Hmmmm…what’s next for me??
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