I am…

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I am sitting here. Typing. Mostly happy. Sometimes a bundle of nerves.

I wonder why I’m still there, how I’m getting out of there, where I’m going, what I’m doing. I wonder if you know what I’m really talking about as I’m trying to be cryptic – some things just can’t be said on the blog.

I hear nothing. That means I should be worried in a house that has two almost 5 year old children in it.

I see my computer screen. My huge to-do list. My faithful furry companion at my feet. He’s one smart dog.

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I want to go for a run.

I am a procrastinator. I should be cleaning out closets, planning my kids birthday party (done!), writing articles and posts, making dinner.

I pretend that I can tolerate some people, but listening to them makes me want to scream.

I feel that if I laugh I can tolerate anything.

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I touch my kids’ hair. It’s calming to me. Is it for them?

I worry about how my kids’ will do in Kindergarten in the fall. Are they ready? Is the school any good? Will they have friends?

I cry at a videos of puppies and dogs. Especially THIS one.

I am happy, sad, tormented, stuck, inpatient, looking for a way to move forward.

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I understand that most people feel the same way.

I say I want a change, but I don’t know where to start.

I dream of running again, summer days at the beach and having the answers.

I try to be positive. But some people just suck the life out of you.

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I hope I never turn into a person like that.

I am ready to release it all in yoga class.

This is an Old School Blogging prompt hosted by Elaine and Angela. Want to play? Just copy the text in bold and write your own version!

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16 comments on “I am…

  1. Lots of feels for you in this one. I’m glad you have yoga as an outlet, even though it pales in comparison to running. You will be there again. I was just given an order of no running for 2 weeks. Wish we lived closer so we could rage a yoga class together!!!! xo
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  2. What a great, honest peek into your world at that moment- I love this old school blogging stuff! And I hope you continue to get clear direction as you move forward. It’s not easy feeling stuck. Have a great weekend!!
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  3. I love these posts and so glad that you added yours. It’s funny how we can relate to similar feelings when so few words (and some vagueness) is shared. I feel stuck (still!) and tormented and impatient. And the quiet house? Total red flag! Hope they didn’t get into trouble and they will be great next year.
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  4. I love this. I have to say that my best, most inspired posts come from a low place, a sad place.

    You’ll be back on the road and better than ever. Said the most impatient person ever. Sending love and healing vibes….
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  5. I’m not sure why you are not running right now but I know that feeling and I do not like it. That’s an awesome yoga pose and great photo!

    Thank you for sharing your “I am…” poem. πŸ™‚

  6. I love your poem! It speaks to a lot of us, for sure. Many times when I feel like I am not moving forward in any way, just picking something that I can do, even if it is not on my “to do” list, I feel so much better. That goes for exercising as well. Maybe I had planned on a run, but it just didn’t happen, so I took the dogs for a short walk and did a few squats instead. Instantly felt better.
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