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Remembering I Can

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Last weekend as I was digging in my workout clothes drawer for a shirt to wear on my bike ride, I came across a shirt I hadn’t seen in 3 months.

My Stonyfield jersey from Boston.

Instantly, the memories of that day and what was supposed to be came flooding back.

I hesitated about wearing it. I haven’t been able to wear my Boston jacket or anything else that I got to celebrate such an awesome race. There’s just too much baggage with it. Did I really want to go there?

But I put it on anyway.

As I pedaled on my ride, my mind was all over the place thinking about the events of the day. I even teared up a bit. Three months ago I was full of hope, excitement and overjoyed with the possibilities of where my running was headed. So much has changed in 3 months. Gone are all those feelings. I’m left with just a big question mark.

The one thing that hasn’t changed in 3 months (to the day actually)?

I’m still not running.

When I was first injured, I thought 6-8 weeks, tops, would be the length of time I spent not running. I’d still have plenty of time to soak in all of summer running’s glory – runrises, long runs at the beach, trail runs – and not to mention all of the summer and fall races.

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But here I am, 3 months later, not running at all. And the bigger question if I’ll be able to run any races at all for the rest of 2015 is floating in my brain. I already dropped out of Zooma Cape Cod, will Reach the Beach be next?  And who knows about Chicago. I pretty much know I won’t be able to run the race with Marina.

Last week, my foot was feeling better. I’ve have been able to walk longer with no pain and it doesn’t ache after being on my feet all day at work. One morning while out for a walk, I thought I’d try a little jog. At first it didn’t feel too bad, although my stride was not anywhere close to my normal. That lasted all of 30 seconds before the familiar pain was back. Yup. Not ready.

I mentioned it to my PT the next day during my appointment. She had me try to hop on my left foot. I did one hop and had shooting pain that did not go away as soon as I stopped hopping. Not good. Not good at all.

We agreed I needed to see the orthopedic doctor again. She thought I’d be back to running by at least 10 weeks and if I’m still having pain, there’s something still going on in my foot. It could still be the posterior tib tendon or something else. She didn’t think it was a fracture (and neither did the ortho) but maybe a tear or another tendon that’s injured.

On Friday, I had an MRI. I don’t find out the results till Thursday this week when I’ll discuss the plan of action with my orthopedic doctor.

Not running sucks. I don’t even feel like myself. My body feels different physically and mentally. I’ve been feeling frumpy, foggy, drained, sad and just plain antsy. Cycling, walking, the elliptical, yoga, lifting weights – there’s no comparison to the runner’s high.

Fix my ponytail and find my strong | happyfitmama.com

I’ve been trying to down play my feelings about my injury. I don’t like to complain and I don’t like to whine (but I do like wine). I know this is temporary, but it’s been the longest I’ve gone without running in the past 5 years. Me running is the only way I can tolerate my kids. Kidding. Sort of.

A few days ago, I was digging through a cabinet and found an article that I tore out of Runner’s World Magazine about injuries. I stopped to reread it and one part stood out to me –

When injured, stop focusing on what you can’t do and focus on what you CAN do. Use all the energy and focus that you put into training for a race into your rehab exercises.

As simple as the statement is, it was my AHA! moment.

So I’m going to fix my ponytail and try to focus on the CAN rather than the CAN’T. I’m sure I’m still going to wallow as I scroll through my Instagram feed and see all the wonderful runners celebrating the love of the run. I’m sure I’m going to feel pangs of jealousy as I hear my friends tell stories of long run escapades or complaints about running in the heat and humidity. I’m sure I’m going to whine about if only I could just go for a run. If I didn’t have these feelings, I wouldn’t be a runner.

And I am still a runner.

My Kids’ Thoughts on Having a Mother Runner

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I saw this cute questionnaire for kids about their mother runner on Beth and Allie’s blogs. Even though I’m injured and currently not running, I still wanted to hear their thoughts on having a mother runner.

1. What does mom eat before a run?

Avery: Bananas

Lukas: Apple or crayons

Obviously they are usually asleep when I go for a run. And Lukas must think I like wax.

2. How far does mom run everyday?

Avery: 25 miles

Lukas: 60 miles

I think they got me confused with Scott Jurek or the Iron Cowboy.

Moms on the Run 5k | HappyFitMama.com

3. What was mom’s favorite race?

Avery: Boston!

Lukas: Boston!

Ouch. It should have been my favorite race. While they were having fun riding the T and hanging out at the Aquarium, I was having the worst day of my life.

4. Why do you think your mom runs?

Avery: Because she likes it.

Lukas: She has too much energy and needs to burn it off.

Yes! They know me well.

5. What injuries has mom had from running?

Avery: Foot

Lukas: Foot

They don’t remember the others. Just the latest and longest. Probably because I’ve been dragging them to PT with me twice a week for what seems like forever.

6. Do you like going to mom’s races?

Avery: Yes! I get to see her run.

Lukas: Yes! I like the food at the after party.

I’m not sure why Avery didn’t say the food too. Their #1 priority post race is eating my food.

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7. Have you learned anything from having a mom who runs?

Avery: Yes. Running.

Lukas: Yes. If you run you should bring vitamins and food.

Not sure what either response meant. And I’m quite positive I’ve never mentioned vitamins and running in the same sentence to Lukas.

8. Does having a mom who runs make you want to run?

Avery: Yes!

Lukas: Yes! I want to run with you because I miss you.

Good answers!

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9. What’s your least favorite thing about having a mom who runs?

Avery: Running

Lukas: Running

Hmmm?

10. Do you think you’ll run when you are your mom’s age? And how old do you think your mom is? (37 btw)

Avery: Yes. She’s 30.

Lukas: Yes. She’s 60.

One brings my ego way up and the other brings it way down.

How would your kid(s) answer? Go find out!

Rise. Run. Retreat. {Giveaway}

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Picture it.

A weekend away at a beach house in Maine with an amazing group of fun, fearless and fantastic friends. And you are all runners.

Sounds absolutely wonderful, right?

Well, that is what will be happening the weekend of October 2-5th. I’m beyond excited that I’ll be attending the inaugural Rise.Run.Retreat.

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Rise.Run.Retreat. is an intimate retreat built around the idea that through connections with other women in the running community we can build each other up to be stronger women. Sarah and Jesica cooked up this idea and have invited myself and 7 other spectacular running bloggers:Tina, Laura, Christine, Allie, Sandra, Jen. (Click on their names to follow their amazing blogs).

I can’t wait to hang out with Laura, Christine, Sarah and Michele again. I’m even more excited to FINALLY meet Allie, Sandra, Jen, Jes and Tina. Can you believe I’ve never met Sandra and we live in the same state?!?!

It’s going to be a weekend of laughter, good times and of course running. All the retreat attendees are running the Maine Half Marathon – although I’m undecided since it is the weekend before Chicago Marathon. And who knows what my running status will be by then.

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And look at the amazing line up of New England based companies!

Since Rise.Run.Retreat. is in it’s first year, Sarah and Jes wanted to keep it small. The hope is to one day open it’s doors to all who wish to attend.

BUT, there’s room for one more lucky lady to join us!

Pretty cool, right?

Here’s the details:

  • the contestant will receive: free retreat registration.
  • must be available October 2-5th
  • provide for your own travel to and from Wells, Maine and be responsible for some meals
  • responsible for Maine Half Marathon registration $65 cost
  • be active on social media in some form, you don’t have to have a blog

To enter, simply let me know why you want to attend Rise.Run.Retreat. in 200 words or less in a comment below.

So join us for what is going to be an amazing weekend of running, laughing and building life long friendships!

For other chances to enter, check out Allie, Christine, Laura, Jen, SandraTinaSarah and Jesica‘s blogs for their giveaways. We will each choose one candidate from the entries on our blog and then one overall winner will be selected.

Be sure to following Rise.Run.Retreat on Instagram and Twitter to check out all the fun.

This giveaway is void where prohibited. Must be 18 years or older to enter. Contest runs 7/1-7/10. Winners will be selected based on their response. Winners announced 7/13. Winner is responsible for all travel and meal costs.